Many Maybes

Ugh. I don’t really have anything else to say. Once I had (sort of) resigned myself to the idea of doing a lung biopsy, the team came back saying that the plan might be shelved for a bit.

I don’t want to get into all the medical details right now, but Gavin may have something more fundamentally wrong with his lungs, a terrible side-effect of the chemo. The situation is not good, but we hope that with all the teams on board we can get to the root of the problem. There are many maybes and what ifs being thrown around right now, so I’ll keep you all posted on what happens tomorrow.

On a side note, we are all exhausted, tempers are frayed, and I think a new sort of torture has been invented at the hospital which involves constant exposure to loud and irritating noises. None of us can hear each other over the roar of the oxygen, we’ve got no idea what Gavin is saying half the time because we can’t hear him, and the constant beeps of the monitor and IV pumps are driving us mental. Add to all of this a Backyardigans soundtrack and you’ve got a recipe for disaster.

Little Gavin is very, very unwell right now. He is feeling even worse than he was yesterday, so right now needs all the loving thoughts and good vibes that he can get.

13 Responses to “Many Maybes”

  1. Nicole says:

    This is so hard to read – so sorry this is happening right now! We are pulling together prayers, positive thoughts and strength and sending it to Gavin – we have also asked our family and friends to do the same to help Gavin get through this tough time. He has amazed us all with his strength up until now and we know he can pull trhough all of this. I wish we could take away all of this pain – we love you and are thinking of you always xo

  2. Mette says:

    Sending loving, healing vibes and some extra fantastic power boost to those brand new baby white cells. Go, Team, Go. Heal, Team, Heal!

  3. Phil, Amy Phoebe and Tom says:

    we’re thinking of little Gavin every day and sending all of our best thoughts and wishes. Gavinator we’re all in your corner mate.

  4. Aunt Karen says:

    Go Gavinator! Fight, fight, fight!!

    We love you all…what a terrible, terrible agony for everyone. Wish once again, I had a magic wand.

  5. Cherie says:

    What a horrible situation for you all. Fight little Gavin! Fight! Thinking of you everyday and sending all the good vibes we have to you three. xoxoxo Cherie and Stephan.

  6. I can hear the collective sound of all our hearts breaking at the hardships you all are enduring. But we’re praying louder and harder and sending you all the love and strength and healing energy we can muster to help you through this time. Stay strong as we know you will, but remember that you’re only human and when you cry and lose your temper it’s what you should and have to do. You are the most amazing mum, and we believe in you. Hang in there, the worst is over and he will start getting better. Lots of love and hope, sxoxo.

  7. Diana Solomon says:

    Erica, I think of Gavin every day and send my most positive and strong thoughts to the powers that be to ensure that Gavin is safe and strong. He is a mighty boy. And you are mighty parents. xx diana, adam and gavin’s friend, seraphina

  8. Paul Rance says:

    Have just read out to Katie and found it very hard to keep myself from crying. Sending the strongest love and healing will power to Gavin, to add to his amazing strength and fight. Our love and prayers. X

  9. Mairi says:

    With you in prayer.

  10. Melanie says:

    Sending energy to you Gavin – BATTLE IT OUT – YOU CAN DO IT – You are strong as are your Parents!!!

    Praying and sending the energy!
    Auntie Melanie

  11. John (& Susan & Laura) says:

    We’re thinking of you guys and sending positive energy!

  12. Lisa says:

    I’m thinking of your family often and sending love and patience. I can’t even imagine how difficult this is for you and if you could find your way to get some sleep…it’s the magic ingredient, I’m just sure of it.
    Gavin, you are extraordinary!! Keep up the fight.

  13. Linda says:

    Hi Erica

    I’m a friend of Nitasha Mann, who is the sister in law of your friend Ramona.
    I am a strong believer in the law of attraction and have been studying and practicing it for the last 4 years and it has worked miracles in my life.
    Using my knowledge of the law of attraction and how important gratitude and focusing on only the positive is, I wrote a prayer for my friend’s dad who is currently in critical conditon to help my friend stay positive and support him. I have changed the prayer and adopted it for Gavin. I hope this helps you in anyway:

    Dear God

    Thank you for my sweet little Gavin
    He is the greatest gift and blessing anyone could ever wish for
    Thank you God for Gavin’s health
    Thank you for Gavin’s strength
    Thank you for Gavin’s recovery
    Thank you for the progress we have seen so far

    Thank you for the great care he is receiving at this hospital
    We are so grateful to live in a country that provides my Gavin with the best possible healthcare
    Thank you for the nurses
    Thank you for the doctors
    Thank you for this medical technology
    Thank you for our families for their support
    Thank you for our friends for their support
    We are so blessed in every way
    Gavin is so blessed in every way
    Gavin is so lucky to be surrounded with so much love and support
    Gavin deserves only the best, because he is the best son anyone could ever have

    Thank you for giving us the strength to support him
    Thank you for keeping us strong and healthy
    Thank you for reminding us to feed ourselves, sleep and breathe, because by taking care of ourselves, we can be strong enough to take care of Gavin who counts on us to be healthy and strong

    Thank you for keeping us optimistic
    We do not let any negative thoughts into our minds (no matter what others say to us)
    We no longer speak of his symptoms and setbacks, we only speak of his recovery and progress
    We no longer think about his symptoms and setbacks, we only think of his recovery and progress
    I will only discuss his progress from now on
    We focus our attention on every bit of progress we see and we give abundant gratitude for it because we know he will get better each day
    Our minds are only filled with confidence, love and gratitude for his health
    Our hearts are only filled with confidence, love and gratitude for his health
    Our words only speak with confidence, love and gratitude for his health
    We have to be optimistic and confident to support him and that’s exactly what we’ll be
    Thank you helping us forget our worries and fears because we know that negative energy doesn’t serve him
    Thank you for helping us be happy and upbeat in his presence because we know that our positive energy can work miracles
    Thank you for helping us laugh and be loving in his presence because we know that’s what he needs the most
    We believe with every fibre of our being that Gavin will be restored to his healthy state
    Because we know ANYTHING is possible with LOVE and FAITH


    Thanks for being strong Gavin
    We know you’ll be okay
    We love you Gavin
    And we’re here for you every step of the way

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