This kid.

Wishes

When I blow out birthday candles, break a wishbone, throw coins in fountains, or see the first star of the evening, like a child, I close my eyes and make a wish. My wishes are always the same. Of course. So with a heart full of the most immense gratitude, I can declare that my […]

MRI x Two

MRI x Two

It’s been a big week. Some notes: Gavin had his MRI last Saturday, which was his first to be done annually. I haven’t had any news from that scan. It wasn’t the smoothest day for my boy. He’s deeply traumatized by the ongoing pain of IVs, and unfortunately had to act as pincushion for an […]

The Horse

The Horse

This post was written in December, 2016. There is a story behind this horse. This horse and her Barbie friend were given to Skye by a woman I admire deeply and hold in the highest regard for the level of care she gave my Gavin whilst he was in residence on the bone marrow transplant […]

Relief, the Mirror of Anxiety

Relief, the Mirror of Anxiety

My cell phone rang last Friday morning. My phone doesn’t ring much, as I communicate with most people in my life via text or email. For a moment, I looked in shock at the 813 prefix, a million thoughts careening through my mind, knowing that the news I was about to hear would either rocket […]

The Looming Feeling

The Looming Feeling

I’m doing busywork today. Organizing old papers. Vacuuming. Fixing a picture-frame. Anything, really, that might distract me from the thought of Skye’s MRI on Thursday, July 21st.  This will be her very first one, and I’m dreading it. Contemplating Thursday morning has my abdomen tied up in knots. Do I have reason to believe that […]

Six Years

Six Years

Gavin, Skye and I spent the morning in the neuro-oncology clinic to go over the results of Gavin’s most recent MRI. Once again, I’m overjoyed to report that Gav’s scans were clear. This means that we have another 6 months to go until the next one, at which point they will become annual. SIX. YEARS. […]

At the Speed of Light

At the Speed of Light

Life seems to be hurtling past at a great velocity. Days and weeks blur and blend together, leaving me wondering, really, where does the time go? We’ve now just about reached the first anniversary of Gavin’s return to wellness. I hesitate to use the expression “wonder drug,” but Gav’s medication has been life-altering for us. He hasn’t […]

The Days are Long, but the Years are Short

The Days are Long, but the Years are Short

Are there more grown-ups or kids in the world? – Bean My son asked me that a few days ago, and I spent a couple of minutes explaining that there are more grown-ups in the world, simply because we all spend far more of our lives being adults than we do being children. Plus, we’re […]

The Wonderful One

The Wonderful One

It’s Skye’s first birthday! 365 days have passed since she made her official debut. In all of those days she has brought me joy, laughter, comfort, and love. She is truly a gift to us and despite the frustrations that babyhood can bring, every day I try to enjoy her and not worry about the […]

Farewell Summer

Farewell Summer

Poof!  Just like that, we are into week 2 of school, with the golden gates of summer slammed shut behind us. It’s always a bittersweet time of year, with the swimming and ice-cream-eating over, and everyone bustling, busy and getting back to school and work properly. To-do lists are long and intentions are good. We […]